Pressing In

It was just a few weeks ago where everyone said goodbye to 2011 and welcomed in 2012. Pretty soon we will be in December and wondering where this year went…well, let’s not get too ahead of ourselves. I am taking on this new year relishing every moment and being hopeful on the promises of God. I have found that through challenges and trials, we quickly find where our hope lies…in a person, a job, money, friends, status, etc. This year, I resolve to have my hope stayed in God and to go deeper in my relationship with Him. I don’t want to just rely on Him when things are difficult but I want to rely on Him in everything.

This past week, I started a new job in an area where I don’t have a lot of experience in. Each day, I learn something new and realize that in learning something new you have to start with the basics and build a foundation. There are some things that I pick up quickly but there are other things that I will take a little longer for me to grasp. Even in a week, I have yet to learn so much more and thinking about it can be daunting. One thing is for sure, I need to not give up but to press in. I find myself having to rely on God because I can’t rely on myself or my experience since I have little to go by. What a humbling yet great place to because I know that God is pruning and bringing out the gifts in me. It is not about me but it is all about Him. In my weakness, He is strong because it is not about me but it is about God who is working through me.

This year I am determined to not to just get by but to press in and live my life to the fullest. I’m determined to press in even if it is painful. I’m determined to give more of myself and expecting nothing in return. And it is only by God’s grace, mercy and love that I am able to accomplish this.

Happy New Year – Nashville Style

Trisha and I rang in the New Year with thousands of people in downtown Nashville. My heart leaped with such joy hearing all the different types of live music coming out every bar and restaurant. I loved it! Jimmy always wanted to go Nashville and I felt he was with me as I took in on the sights and sounds of downtown. Here is a video of us bidding farewell to 2011 and welcoming 2012. I could of not thought of a more fun way to celebrate than with my amazing friend Trisha along with thousands of others. Here is a video of the moment…

The Best Is Yet To Come…

As you can see, it’s been awhile since I last posted a blog. A lot has happened since I posted back in Sept. 2010. I can honestly say that I have experienced and lived life. Yet, there is so much more of life, I have yet to experience and live. In the past year in a half, I have gone through so much. I have experienced such good things…new friends, new relationships, love, laughter, adventure, breakthrough, healing and restoration as well as some struggles..testing, failure, lost friends and loved ones, sadness, heartache and grief.

Given all of the things I have experienced, I have grown and continue to grow as I trust in God. Through everything, I am CONVINCED that God is forever faithful even when we are not and even when we don’t understand. He is always there and He loves us soooooo much!! I am hopeful for 2012 and I believe and claim that the “Best Is Yet To Come.” That is my prayer for myself and for all of my family and friends!! I am so thankful for my family and friends who have touched my life with your support, love and friendship. Your lives have thoroughly enriched mine.

Happy New Year!!

Intern Training Camp – First Night

Last weekend, I started as an Intern for The City Church and we kicked it off by going on a camping trip. Thursday afternoon we left for Perris Lake to spend a weekend of drawing closer to God and team building. I must admit, I was nervous because I had no idea what to expect but by the end, I had an absolutely wonderful time! A weekend filled with new friendships forged and definitely lots of laughter!! There was almost 50 of us that went…so awesome! We were divided into 4 groups and our group was the Leadership group. The other groups were Discipleship, Serving, and Unity.

I loved our group and we certainly bonded pretty quickly when we were assigned to make dinner the first night for everyone. We decided to make a spaghetti dinner. (I know you are probably thinking spaghetti dinner camping??) We were told that we had burners so we thought spaghetti. We got there and quickly set up camp. After, we began to prepare dinner…the main thing was of course the burners and unfortunately the piece to connect the burners to the propane was not correct so no burners. To say the least we had a big challenge to figure out how to boil water and cook meat. But our team was determined to figure out a way. We then began to start the charcoals and create a fire on the grills. Even that was a challenge because there was A LOT of wind that kept the fire from staying lit. So we held up a beach towel to keep the wind and took turns keeping the fire going. By the grace of God and some great team work, we were able to make a really good spaghetti dinner. It only took us almost 3 hours but it was well worth the wait and hard work. Here are a few videos and picture from our experience…

And our finished product close 3 hours later…This was our last pot out of 3 pots of spaghetti…God totally multiplied the meal!

In Honor of My Beloved Sister…Kimberly

In the midst of all the busyness of today…I almost forgot the significance of today. Today would of been my sister Kimberly’s 26th birthday. Some of you may know but many may not know that I had a little sister. I also have an amazing younger brother Vincent whom I love and so proud of. However, my sister Kimberly was the youngest of the 3 of us and in my opinion, the strongest because of what she had to go through. She was diagnosed with Leukemia at the age of 4 and I was 10. She lost her fight to cancer and passed away 2 years later. In the 6 years of her life she showed me so much strength, perseverance and love.

I remember the night before she died and praying to God to save her and if He saved her, I would give my life to Him and follow Him. God however did not answer my prayer the way I thought He would. My sister went to be with Jesus the next day. It was not until a few months ago going over my testimony of how I made Jesus, the Lord and Savior of my life 11 years ago, that God showed me the answer to my prayer that night. He spoke to me so clearly that He did save my sister and she is with Him and that I did eventually give my life to Him and follow Him. That blew me away and humbled me so much!

Today, I want to honor her because she was a wonderful person and I believe that she made a difference with her life. Through her life and what God has done in my life, God has placed a desire in me to reach young women and see them have a relationship with Jesus!

Enjoying The Journey!!

So it has been awhile since I have updated my blog…I have been having fun of course but this has also been a time of stretching for me and a bit of transition. With all the stretching and transition and I am learning to just enjoy the journey.

. . . how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask Him! —Matthew 7:11

God has been so faithful through this particular season of my life. Today, especially I am in awe of God’s faithfulness as I celebrate another year of walking with the Lord. I can’t believe that it has been 11 years! I look back at how much God has grown me in faith and yet, I see that I have so much more growing up to do.

In this particular season of my life, it is my desire to go deeper and more intimate with God! As I draw near to Him, He has certainly been faithful to draw near to me. I have such a greater revelation of God’s unconditional love for me. I am beginning to understand more of God’s Grace for me and that it is by His grace that I am saved and it is not by my works.

For the past four months, I have been going to a great church called The City Church. Through this church, I have literally felt the Presence of God like no other and it has been a place where I have received ministry and healing in many areas of my life. Currently, I am about to embark on a nine month journey as an intern with The City Church beginning in September. I am super excited for this opportunity as I believe that God is going to do great and mighty things in my life through this program. It is my desire to live a life that ministers to others and brings glory to God. These past few months have been amazing yet challenging as God has shown me that no matter what I do, say, or how act, HE LOVES ME!!! Now that may seem like a simple concept but that is an area that I hadn’t fully grasped since I bought into the lie that I needed to work, serve and strive to be perfect for God to love me. Through this program, I have an opportunity to focus on God and be poured into by spending time with Him and allowing Him to work in me so that I can minister to others.

I hope to blog of my experience as I embark on this journey. I appreciate your prayers as I get ready for a great nine months and I fully expect God to bring me out after this program knowing who God has created me to be and for Him to bring about the dreams and desires of my heart!

My Worst Fear…Victoriously Conquered!!

WARNING!!! This post is not for people who have a weak stomach…I would suggest to stop reading now past this point…

Today was an especially long day and like any other day, I thought it would be like any typical day. I arrived to work ready to take Ty to and from preschool and to spend the day with dear Taylor. I took Ty to school who was fine when I dropped him off. Well, everything was going okay until I got a call from Ty’s dad, Eric, that Ty is not acting like his typical self according to his teachers and that I needed to pick him up right away. Well, I rushed out of the house with little Taylor in tow. I arrived at the school to find Ty wrapped up in his blanket super tired.

I took Ty home and he told me that his stomach hurt. I gave him some tums and he slept for 2 hours and woke up with his stomach still hurting. I felt so bad for him, I asked him if I could pray for his stomach and he said yes…so we prayed. We believed God would heal him and He did…but not in the way that I expected.

After an hour, Ty was in real pain and I didn’t know what to do so I text his mom asking for suggestions. She gave me a few suggestions and Ty didn’t want to eat or do anything but be in his pjs so we headed to his room to change and it was after I put his pjs on…my worst fear came true…Ty stood there and said he felt like throwing up and before I could react…projectile vomit of Frosted Flakes and Craisins. Fortunately, he was facing away from me but I proceeded to lead him quickly to the bathroom where he threw up some more.

In my almost four years of watching the kids, I was fortunate to not have to deal with throw up which I prayed that I wouldn’t have to deal with because I didn’t know how I would deal with it myself. In fact, I feared what might happen and that I would get sick. Well, God’s grace was all over it because I didn’t throw up myself but was able to comfort Ty in his greatest time of need. After he got sick…he was fine…not only fine but 100% better and back to his normal self.

Praise the Lord for Ty’s healing and although, I would rather that He didn’t throw up, I happy that he is doing much better. I am so thankful that God covered me and that I have victoriously overcame one of my worst fears. Bummer is that I probably won’t be eating Frosted Flakes or Craisins for awhile.

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